Stuck.

everything and everyone around me seems to be moving in fast forward. everyone’s always got places to go and people to see. i, on the other hand, i feel like i’m stuck. i’ve been where i’m at since i graduated. i feel like my life, at least for right now, is going no where. maybe part of that was because i was shooting for something my heart really wasn’t into? after talking to one of my best friends, i realized i should be what i want to be, and be where i want to be. no matter what. it’s scary sometimes ya know. i’m so used to listening to what people tell me to do. i’ve grown up listening to my parents telling me what to do. all because i know if i listen to them, it’ll please them and make them happy. but does it really make me happy? don’t get me wrong here, i’m all up for making my parents happy. it’s the least i can do after everything they’ve done for me. but, don’t they always say whatever makes me happy will make them happy? i don’t mean to sound selfish, but this time, i’m going to choose to do what makes me happy. maybe it’s not what they want to see me doing, but eventually they’ll understand it. so, instead of being stuck, it’s time for me to wake my ass up, and get moving towards where i want to be. here we go, time to press that play button…

"but i keep climbing and hoping things would change ..."

"Sometimes, in relentless efforts to find the person we love we fail to recognize and appreciate the people who love us. We miss out so many beautiful things simply because we allow ourselves to be enslaved by our own selfish concerns. Go for the man of deeds and not for the man of words for you will find rewarding happiness not with the man you love but the man who loves you more. The best lovers are those capable of loving from a distance far enough to allow the person to grow, but never too far to feel the love deep within your being. To let go of someone doesn't mean you have to stop loving, It only means that you allow that person to find her own happiness without expecting her to come back. Letting go is not just setting the other person free, but it is also setting yourself free from all bitterness, hatred, and anger that you keep in your heart. Do not let the bitterness eat away your strength and weaken your faith, and never allow pain to dishearten you, but rather let yourself grow with wisdom in bearing it. You may find a peace in just loving someone from a distance not expecting anything in return. But be careful, for this can sustain life but never can give enough room for us to grow. We can all survive with just beautiful memories of the past but real peace and happiness come only with open acceptance of what reality is today. There comes a time in our lives when we chance upon someone so nice and soon becomes a part of our everyday lives and eventually consumes our thoughts and actions. The sad part of it is when we begin to realize that this person feels nothing more for us than just a friendship, we start our desperate attempt to get noticed and be closer but in the end our efforts are still rewarded and we end up being sorry for ourselves. You don't have to forget someone you love. What you need to learn is how to accept the verdict of reality without being bitter or sorry for yourself. Believe me, you would be better off giving that dedication and love to someone more deserving. Don't let your heart run your life, be sensible and let your mind speak for itself. Listen not only to your feelings but to reason as well. Always remember that if you lose someone today, it means that someone better is coming tomorrow. If you lose love that doesn't mean that you failed in love. Cry if you have to, but make it sure that the tears wash away the hurt and bitterness that the past has left you. Let go of yesterday and love will find its way back to you. And when it does, pray that it may be the love hat will stay and last a lifetime. There are two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other through everything is a miracle.

There is no mistake so painful that love cannot forgive. no past so bitter that love cannot accept. And no love so little that we cannot start all over with."

- Albert Einstein

September1, 2008 Season 6 Premiere, One Tree Hill :]

"The important thing is not to be bitter over life's disappointments. Learn to let go of the past, and recognize that every day won't be sunny. And when you find yourself lost in the darkness of despair remember, it's only in the black of night that you see the stars, and those stars lead you back home. So don't be afraid to make mistakes, to stumble and fall, because most of the time the greatest rewards come from doing the things that scare you the most. Maybe you'll get everything you wish for. Maybe you'll get more than you ever could have imagined. Who knows where life will take you. The road is long and in the end, the journey is the destination."
-One Tree Hill